If we are lucky to make it to adulthood, we may be plagued by memories of imperfection embodied in our youth. I know for a fact, that I would not be dealing with a diagnosis of multiple sclerosis if I had not pushed myself so hard throughout life. I was very driven as a child especially when it came to sports. I loved sports and spent great effort in playing sports but did not pay enough attention to taking care of myself when I was younger. I regret not treating myself with kindness and compassion in my youth. But as there are consequences from every action in the 3D world, I think I am pretty grateful to be here now. I had anorexia nervosa in my early teens (age 11 to 14) which I did overcome and have not relapsed since I was 21. My stress levels were very high at that time.
I also developed MS because I ate poorly for about five years. There are no accidents just consequences to every action. I had a sugar addiction when I was attending university. I would also binge drink on occasion at that time too. I know now from going to naturopathic medical school that those two behaviors will contribute to gastrointestinal permeability. Also being a high-performance athlete contributes to gastrointestinal permeability. Gastrointestinal permeability is a key factor in developing an autoimmune disease.
We trained hard being varsity athletes. We would do early morning runs on three days of the week. We would practice from 4:30 to 6:30 pm after university classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. We would play games on Wednesday nights at 7 pm. We would often travel on the weekends to play other teams and universities. That was my most favorite time of my life though. I regret that I was not conscious and aware of how important it was to eat well when I was younger. My parents provided me with sound nutrition. I just made poor choices at times and now my poor choices have caught up with me.
My intuition told me when I was in my mid twenties to study naturopathic medicine and that was one of the best decisions that I made. I have since learned how to take excellent care of my health with diet and lifestyle. I will forever be compensating for errors of my youth but I have accepted that as my wisdom that I can pass on to other people. I have had patients over the years that have confessed to me that some of the errors of their youth resulted in health challenges (a smoker with a diagnosis of tongue cancer comes to mind).
I would love to be able to speak to young athletes in schools and universities of the importance of sound nutrition and watching alcohol intake in order to preserve life long health. I feel I have to eat perfectly for the rest of my life. My sister says I have orthorexia now and she may be right about that. I did go into the perfect field to maintain my health.
I do know that one trigger that I have trouble overcoming is overwork. I often don’t know my limits until I have overextending myself and have wound up in the ditch. That is typical of autoimmune. I am learning to make peace with the driven side of myself and am learning the wisdom that my body communicates to me every day.
Life is a long journey. Your intuition can guide you. Your personal will needs to be united with divine will in order for your life to unfold in such a way that you can be used for God’s service and as an instrument of God’s love.
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