My ebook on recovering from anorexia is coming out this month. I wanted to touch on an aspect that I felt was helpful to my recovery. Dr. John Demartini and his collapse work with patients has helped me a lot in my life. His book the Breakthrough Experience should be on everybody’s shelf. I read it when I was in my late twenties. A doctor colleague friend of mine collapsed my life over coffee once and it really shifted my perspective of things. At the time, I was with a boyfriend who ended up being such a mirror reflection of mine. His books really are meant to bring you to more love and acceptance of yourself and shift your perspctives to a more balanced perspective.
In my ebook which is titled Putting the Puzzle Together: Gathering up my Lost Soul Pieces to Heal my Anorexia Nervosa I talk about the collapse process and how it has been helpful to me in my life. I talk specifically about my grief over not having a family and how i have had to collapse that perspective and see where I feel like I have a family. I treat my patients like they are part of my family. I worry about my patients like they are part of my family If anything feels like a crisis for them, I feel it like they are part of my family.
I have a number of plants in my apartment, I almost treat them like they are part of my family. I maximize their light, position them for their best growth, repot them and move them to the to a bigger pot when necessary. So in a microway, it is like having my own plant family. I talk to my plants like they are my own children. I love that they bless my sacred space of an apartment.
Lastly I had the experience of being a mother when I was in Seattle going to school. I worked part time as a nanny when I was doing my naturopathic medical degree. For three years, I was blessed to be the nanny for the Nilsen’s (Trish and Nick) who now live on Whidbey Island. I got to take care of Sophie who was a 6 month old baby when I first got the job, Katie who was 3 and Christian who was 6. I was their nanny for three years so I had plenty of time to change diapers, I took Katie to swimming lessons and kicked the soccer ball in the back yard with Chris. I even took Sophie to the beach when she was older so I did have the opportunity to be a mother.
I thank God for the experience of being a mother only if for a short time. The mother was so organized so it was easy for me to step into the role and be their part time nanny. I collapse my perceptions and it helps me be grateful for my life. Thank you God for all my blessings.