When I did a life review, what was amazing to me was that I had no idea who I was. I looked back on my life path and who I was for most of it was someone who followed the rules, did what I was told, and bought into all the messages that I was programmed to believe about myself and the external world. When I woke up at 33 years old and realized this, I had a major identity crisis on my hands. Who was I without my external programming? Who I was, before I realized this, was somebody who based my self esteem on externals versus internals. If I was achieving things then I had more self esteem. I didn’t have a solid sense of self esteem that was built from the inside; rather I relied on accomplishing things in the outside world to build my self esteem up. This created pressure on me from a young age to achieve. This was not always a happy space for me to inhabit but this was how I learned to operate in the world based on my perceptions of my upbringing. My perceptions of my childhood created belief systems that did not serve me in my life; belief systems that necessitated achievement to get my love line. This pattern created a false sense of self esteem that was based on externals which could collapse at any time…